Change.

This Word Scares Me Yet I Embrace It So Much.

I Guess I'm Just Afraid Of Change That Im Not Causing Or Trying To Create.

Like Unpredictable Change. 

Thinks Have Just Been Buzzing Through My Head And Those Thoughts Scare Me.

Like 

"When I Get Older How Many Of My Friends Am I Never Going To Speak To/See Ever Again.?"

"Will I Just Be Alone My Whole Life?Pursuing People Who Arn't Interested In?"

"Will I Always Be Stepped On? When Can I Be IN Charge For Once?

People Always Say I Seem Like The Luckiest And Happiest Person In The World.

But Thats Just My Mask.

Everything Is Just Hidden Behind It.

Almost Like The Phantom.

If You See The Man Behind The Mask Ill Have TO Discard Of You.

I Want To Be Open And I Seriously Try But My Past Tries To Creep Back No Matter How Much I Try And Stop It.

I Shall Leave You With The ONE Quote That Keeps My Past Away.

There Is No Future. There Is No Past. Thank God This Moments Not The Last...

No Day But Today.

-"RENT"By Jonathan Larson